Rootless and extravagant dreamers, opinionated and unprejudiced, sharply-witted, independent and faintly narcissistic. These are the Berlin kids in all their beautiful contradictions.
The only person I feel comfortable speaking German with. And the living proof that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.
My French bakery date, heart of gold, trustworthy confidant and sunshine in the darkest hour.
I am so glad I met you, Judith
Moving to other places does not make you really move on the inside. It could, of course. But if you are carrying the same heavy toolkit from place to place, without thinking about which tools are really useful for your life project, you might end up being tired, without having achieved what you wanted to build.
So here I ended up. Berlin. Big. Endless. Wonderful. Scary. Sometimes I see Berlin as a spinning carousel. You have to find your place to enjoy it. I waited for a while by its side, observing. So many options. Which one should I choose ? If you do not know what you want, looking at all these possibilities can be a bit dizzying.
It is essential to take one step at a time. So first, just jump on it!
Now I am waving at you from my flying donkey.
I needed some courage to get on it. I am blessed to have met special people in Berlin. Little suns. They are very supportive and positive.
Encouragement is one of their most beautiful gifts. The act of encouraging others should be done much more often.
It gives strength, it cheers someone up, it can give new perspectives, helps people grow. It is simply powerful and it is… Free ! So I encourage you to encourage the persons around you !
Ah and…you probably heard that 1000 times, but it is absolutely true: do not listen to those who discourage you.”
“I like to compare our lives with canvas: blank when we were born, they get painted by our family, by ourselves when we are old enough, by the school or any other institution we frequented, by our friends and so on.
The environment you were raised in left specific nuances on your canvas, maybe even without you noticing it. Indeed, you did not even decide how you wanted it to look like.
Later, as we are able to go our own way, we could try to change the whole colour palette, painting over with new patterns and nuances, which can be a pretty long endeavor. And even though your canvas is now covered with the pigments you used, the older ones remain underneath.
Some will choose to keep using the same nuances, because they felt good with them, or because it was easier than starting all over again.
Fear of the blank page. I had it for a very long time.
It is not easy at all to paint something totally new without being influenced by the image you were looking at for all these years.
At some point I had to stop, take some distance and observe my canvas.
Why does this pattern come again and again? Which elements do I like, which ones do I not like? Which experiments do I want to go through, which kind of composition would I like to have in the next years? What should be the dominant colour?
Sometimes I feel like a pointillist, changing the whole composition dot after dot. I guess we often cannot change or grow as fast as we would like to. But keep painting things we have in mind or things we enjoy the most is a good way to transform shady canvas into something brighter.”
Miranda Sensomat RE, Fujicolor C200 (35)
Lubitel 166+, Kodak Portra 160 / Fomapan 200 (120)